▋画鬼
杨荟

用白做底色
活着的时候都大抵如此
这事他干了多年
源于人对恐惧的习惯

不过这一次
他想把一个鬼画得像自己
——并不是随心所欲
他一直在蓄积这样的勇气

用铁青打底
深深的忧郁和晦暗
尽量吻合他似有似无的脸

挖一双空洞的眼 再深深凝视
一点一滴注进仇恨
最好能摄人灵魂

画一张悲伤的嘴
在迭经欺骗 惊吓 悲凉 无望后
会念避免自己疯掉的咒语

要不要画上血色的泪
——他害怕了
熄灭炉火烛光之后
在颜色的变幻中
又悄然长出冷硬的脊骨
他从来没有这样害怕过

虽然卸下了所有背负
但在一堆相同的鬼的面具中
他陡生了另类的孤独



Poem by
Yang Hui

Draw a ghost

Use white as a base color
I guess that's the way it's always been when I was alive
He's been doing this for years
It comes from the human habit of fear

But this time he wants to draw a ghost to look like himself
--It's not whatever you want it to be
He's been building up that courage

Use iron blue as a background color
Deep melancholy and darkness
Try to match his seemingly absent face

I'll gouge out a pair of empty eyes and stare deep into them.
A little bit of hate
It better be soul-sucking

Draw a sad mouth.
After all the deception, the shock, the sadness, the hopelessness...
A spell to keep you from going crazy

Shall we paint the tears of blood?
--He’s scared
After the fire and the candles are out
In the shifting color
And a cold, hard spine grows quietly
He's never been so scared before

With all the weight off my back
But in a pile of identical ghost masks
He is lonely in a different way


译/梵君



▋垂钓
杨荟

在同一个黄昏 同一块暗礁
同一种孤独里垂钓

看着上钩的鱼
惊惧 挣扎 痛苦
在瓮里走投无路
巨大的悲哀和深深的绝望后
又把鱼一条一条放回水里 空手而归
他总是这样

拉直心里的鱼钩
用抄过的《心经》做饵
一次次把自己挂上去 直到疼
直到想起自己是个人

他甚至想把锋利的鱼钩含在嘴里
惊惧 挣扎 痛苦 走投无路
在巨大的悲哀和深深的绝望后
——放生自己



Angling
Yang Hui

In the same twilight, on the same reef
Fishing in the same solitude

Look at the fish on the hook
Fear, struggle, pain
the fish are cornered in a jar
After a great sadness and deep despair
He put the fish back in the water one by one and left empty-handed.
He always does

Straighten the hook in your heart
Use the copied Heart Sutra as bait
Hang yourself up again and again until it hurts
Until you remember you're a human

He even tried to put a sharp hook in his mouth
Fear, struggle, pain, desperation
After great sorrow and deep despair
-- Let yourself go


译/梵君

喜欢这个意思

放生自己

问好。